Behind the bride's veil

I shook my head, promising to cheer up as I wiped that tiny tear drop wheeling down my cheek.
'Oh Good God, not again!', Tanya yelled as she entered my room. She saw my flushed eyes and she knew.
'I'm alright, all good', I smiled weakly.
'I'm sure you are! Now get up, they're all here. Look your best!'
I wasn't even listening.
'Aaaaand, He's asked for you twice!', she winked with excitement that she couldn't hold longer.

'Is this right?'
'Stop sulking you fool, what if he is Your He?'
'But how can I let go of my past. Of Aditya?'
'You know it just can't work right, be intelligent for God's sake! Think about mum and dad'
'But...'
'Aditya was a mistake then, he is a mistake now'
'So is that all?'

'Help me T, I can't do this', I looked up at Tanya when I couldn't take in more of the monologue, the internal faculties at war. They didn't let me sleep. Now they clouded me and didn't let me think either.
'Shut up new bride!', she beamed. 'I think it's the butterflies in you that's making you this apprehensive. Shoo them away', she suggested like a kid.
'I wish it were that simple', I soughed.

'The Square?', He asked with eyes that struck.
'Anywhere', I turned away and I watched my cousins and family wave at me. Happy excited anxious faces looking at us. 'Bye! Have fun Vandhuuu', they giggled and tapped the window. 'Tell us what happens!'
Tanya and Varun stood watching us, they looked happy.
'You'll do just fine', their eyes reassured me and I felt my answer.
'Take care', I saw mum and dad and the others disappear from my picture, the supposed happy picture my eyes were painting.

The car cruised out and my heart sank. Reality pounded me. 
'What am I doing? I've got to be preposterous! I have someone waiting for me...'
'Uhh Ram, can we...'
'Yes', He spoke. He looked at me in the eye. 
His eyes twinkled. And mine couldn't face them.

I shut my eyes. I needed to think, and convey. Convincingly, strongly, yet gently.
'I need to tell you something Ram', I gathered up.
'Over some coffee?' He smiled charmingly. He knew. He shifted gear and swept me away.